Ever get that feeling when you KNOW something good is bound to happen. Soon too.

That's exactly how I'm feeling right now~ It's exactly the feeling I need if I want to achieve my goals. If i want to finally reach those different misty longings, this is exactly how I need to be from now on. And I guess I can onl ask God to grant me the will and power to push myself through.

My summer vacation was extremely fun~! I got to visit Singapore again!! And I got to visit my bestie for a WHOLE month! How cool is that?! School was nothing but fun and I'm sure going to miss doing it again next year U.U

In Bulgaria, I learned to ride a horse so that was absolutely WONDERFUL. I trully have fallen in love with the sport. During my practice I was assigned to 3 different horses: Maya - my first one, a bit lame on the right back leg but very stable, Star - very responsive but kept chewing the bit quite a fair amount and Cookie - I gave him the nickname cuz he was pure white with small speckles that made him look like Cookies & Cream; my favourite out of the 3 as he has an almost unnoticable trot and was very lively.

Out of the 13 lessons half were walks and half were in the stables but I loved both of them exactly the same. My last two walks were unforgettable. One of them was in the fields, wide expanses just taunting you, telling you you might just reach over the horizon and the sweet smell of dried grass making you pleasantly sleepy. The other was at the seaside and in the dark. With a full moon out. It cast a milky path across the gently rippling waves and you wouldn't believe how free you can feel with just you, the sea, the dark and your partner, the horse, under you. Not to mention I got Cookie~! Which made it even more memorable....-happy sigh-

These November holidays I'll be going to Aky's house! How I'm looking forward to that~! We can finally get to see each other face to face =3 I can't wait!

Today Aky and I were doing a DGM marathon. I can't believe people can actually come up with things like this.....-sad- But it'll probably be the thing that'll keep me going through the school year *nod*

I'm quite tired now....In addition that I feel dirty and sweaty because there is no WATER!

Some wise guys left their tap running on the 14th floor and....Wait for it....Went for vacation! Now 3 floors are flooded and the water has been shut off so as not to stoke the fire. And now we are stuck in this predicament. Anyway, I hope I have a good last week of holidays!

Matta ne!

Another incoherent post by yours truly (if anyone ever reads this XD)

A lot has happened in this past month >< More than I want to admit actually...

For starters, lets begin with the good news, yeah?

Only a small amount of time and we'll be free....Free like birds on our last summer vacation in school....Can you imagine, in exactly 30 days I will be officially a student of the graduate class, ready to embark on my last leg of school life, no longer having a chance to say " It'll be better ...next year?" I am so close to the edge of leaping into the world and I'm thrilled as at the same time frightened beyond belief. What will happen to me? When I jump off this ledge, spread my wings and soar off further into life, will I find my bearings with only my instics as my compass and my friends as small shelters along the way? Will all of my friendships survive in the years to come and will I always be filled with love for everything I do? Can I say in all honesty that I will reach my goal...even if it itself consists of many smaller ones? Will my life be filled with simple pleasures and bittersweet toils or will I be beaten around mercilessly in the currents that will never seem to stop? To look ahead is bravery, I agree, but to close your eyes and trust faith, pull your wits together and battle for your very survival, I think THAT is true courage...

But I think I'm beginning to sound a bit depressing so I'll move on, ne?

Soul Eater has exceeded all of my expectations.....ALL of them. The anime is just pure GENIOUS and the manga .... *sigh* I adore it ^^ I am so happy I got Aky to watch it with me, as we both now have soemthing to look forward in the upcoming, absolutely killer weeks. The dear is setting for her certificate in French in a week and I'm sure she will just do wonderfuly! Don't worry anata~! You will! And after that both of us have end of the year test / exams >< And how nice they all will look....after we pass them XD

But while I talk about  this, it reminds me of another thing that has been bothering me lately. It really might seem silly to some, but I am in a real fix where I can't get out....Even if I try >< I will explain the problem briefly....

I desperately want Aky to visit me this summer....truly and wholeheartedly....I can't ask for anything MORE! Or maybe, I can....And that is to visit my other best friend Ollie....in Singapore.... But up until now, that has been impossible >< And yet, fate seems to like to mock me and I find myslef in the strangest fix yet.... I need to deside....Between my two best friends...Between what I want and what my parents want....Between two choices that if I pick either, it makes my heart tear >< I can't stand it....It's as if someone offered me either air or food and water. You can't survive either way....

I think my post is beginning  to be even more depressing...but I'll add a bit more...

I'm the founder of Aphina Scanlations and Fansubs. A fun and fullfilling occupation....most of the time >< To make a long story short, we have just gotten ourselves a translator....

....who is an absolute JERK ><

I feel so uncomfortable around him.....But he does his job and so far, I can't argue with him about the quality of his work...I guess we'll se how it goes, ne?

I need to send an email to Ollie on my fathers request....Let's see what fate has in store for me now, eh? 

But I think I can qoute Soul on this one...

"Sen sen cool ja nai..."

I've been writing so much today , I doubt this will even be legible XD But still, I promised to faithfully keep this 'log' of my life so I'm not gonna quit on the 3rd day (I REALLY think I will soon though). 

Today Aky watched Toki wo Kakeru Shoujo ( and you can guess, I couldn't resist re-watching it with her) and we agreed that each of us will write a one shot for the MakotoxChiaki pairing and bring Toki onto the FF.net map! But first, I swore to finish at least one claim so that dream is still a bit far off.

Posted my first one-shot for the 30kisses claim and I already got one review. Thank you =3 I appreciate them so much! They really are the food for a writers soul...*munches on it*

But this fanfic proves that if I put my mind to it, I can do it! So I should remind myslef of this when I do other things. Maybe then I won't procrastinate as much =P *wishful thinking* 

Today, rain fell for the first time in a while! It wasn't a downpour, but it did give a fairly decent amount of slickness on the roads. The air smells so fresh now.....

Aky has helped me so much today, I really must write that fanfic for her *feels bad now*
 
I promise I will anata!!

No more writing....My hand really feels ready to fall off.

Matta ne!

As I stepped outside, a cool almost chilly breeze swept past me and danced through the bare , brittle branches of the surrounding trees. The sky was covered in a pale grey cloak of clouds with a hint of blue splashed here and there. The sun sometimes made a daring move and peaked through one of the few holes in the monotonous cloth, in turn making the sky dance with brilliant flashes of gold. It is when I'm in these kind of situations that I appreciate the beauty of things that are just ...there. When rushing to school or work or some appointment or another, I doubt you're going to be craning your neck in the direction of the great expanse. More than likely will you have you r eyes cast downward at the pavement (your thoughts wandering to some unfinished thing or another) or boring into a book or newspaper. But when you least expect it, nature can show such a display of its greatness that you will simply be left breathless.

As you can guess, spring is finally beginning to show its colours, the temperature now well above zero and plenty of fresh air to go around. And in this type of weather the most unusual things are just bound to happen. And I can assure you, they are mostly pleasant. 

I found out that I am going to two National competitions and I just might go to a third. Not to mention one of them is for writing :) It is truly more than I had hoped for. I already have the date and time I need to go meet with the organisers and am already geared up for the amount of work that is waiting to drop on to me. I can't wait!

Maybe I should compose a permanent to-do list.... I have so many things to accomplish but it seems as soon as the short term aim is taken away, the long term one dulls into the background of everyday life.... I am a person who likes to sprint with all of their strength than take it slow and steady (though in reality, I am not only one of the fastest sprinters; my stamina isn't that terrible as well XD) For now, here is what I definitely need to do :

[+] Complete the website
[+] Finish school with some DECENT marks (compared to my previous perfect A+ years, it'll be a hit)
[+] Study German and Japanese on a regular basis
[+] Start getting the scanlation group working
[+]Get a visit from Aky-chan :]
[+] Finish the 30kisses challenge in a decent amount of time (and not drop it like my previous claims)

Quite a lot of plans I have for the future and I don't plan to give up on any of them ANY time soon. So just you wait! I'll show everyone who doubts me that I can do it! I will succeed! After all, in addition to a strong will, I have these incredible friends =3

II agree with the people who say 'No time like the present' but I also agree with the saying 'Time waits for no one...'

Wouldn't you agree?

I've finally decided to make myself active ( more like resurrect myself but =P)

Anyway, today I'm just sitting at home and procrastinating (after lunch I WILL study!) because my parents mysteriously told me  that I can stay home till monday (and school started yesterday O.O) I was really surprised! I mean they never did this before! But it could have something to do with the fact that Mom got hit by a car 2 days ago. 

It was absolutely terrifying.... I never imagined that the 3 phone calls I got with mom telling me she had 'more work' were actually lies....She just comes home, asks me to take of her coat and when I see the sling " I just got hit by a car " I never want to go through that again. Not with my parents nor with my friends. I don't know how I'll live without them....

I finaly started to update my MAL profile which I have also left in a terrible condition. Now it looks pretty decent. I just love how the end result of any graphic designing looks so that is why  I probably feel as if I accomplished something big when I do this XD Now all I need to do is a bunch of other stuff =P

Funny how all the anime I watch somehow end on a terribly "WTH????Noooooooooooooooooooo!!!!" moment. Take for example the movie 'Toki wo Kakeru Shoujo' ( The Girl Who Leaps Through Time ) ended on, again, dissatisfying note. I was thinking all the while when the camera was paning towards the sky " No no no no no. Don't you DARE leave it like this!!" And yet they did >.> Aky will be forced by me to watch it this weekend so me and her can come up with with some idea or another.....IT CAN'T END LIKE THAT! But moving aside from this example, almost everything I watch leads me to wanting to write a fanfic about it (leading to my  great on impulse signing up and then dropping). 

If you don't believe me, try these series and then come back and see if I'm right....

[Finished]
+ Chrno Crusade 
+ Death Note
+ FullMetal Alchemist (thank GOD there is the cannon manga. I don't know what would I do if it REALLY ended like that)
+ Last Exile
+ Ginban Kaleidoscope
+ Oban: Star- Racers
Heck, even BEYBLADE ended on a wierd note....

[On-going]
+ D.Gray-Man (definitely someone is gonna die.....for SURE)
+ Bleach (same as above)
+ Naruto ( don't believe me......It's bound to happen U.U)

I pray One Piece will at least end on a positive note.....They can't do something bad to the Strawhats, they just CAN'T!

I probably need to go for lunch....It's already 2pm >.< 

~Ja